The night before Halloween

Now what wuz I gonna write...? Hmm, I got carried away picking lint off mah shirt. How did it get there? Oh yeah....now I remembers. I kinda stripped off mah clothes and tossed it into a corner while dancing at Mendance today. Not many ppl there but at least there wuz a kitteh there..ME! Hehee. First up wuz DJ Mathieu with hiz smexy french accent *grrrrraolzzzz* then DJ Gregster.

I wuz sooo bored before all that tail shakin at Mendance. What's a neko to do? Shopping! I kinda splurged quite a bit. Bought 2 pairs of jeans from Roosters and new hair at Abyss. There wuz so much more that I wanna get but I have to control myself. Had mah eyes on sum wolverine style claws...those are so cool but when do i really use them? I'd rather continue being a cute sweet kitteh...then when you least expect it, wham! you're flat on your back with me on top of you...I'll let your imagination carry on now =^.~=

Attention Whore

Are you one too?

You Are An Attention Seeker

You're only human, so you can't help but want a little attention every now and then. You love the spotlight, but only when it's well deserved. You'd hate to be known for the wrong thing. And you also don't mind sharing the spotlight. You can easily give someone else credit or a complement. You know there's enough attention to go around, and it makes you happy when your friends shine. You come across as: Friendly and interesting People may wrongly think you're: A little more modest than you actually are!

Are You An Attention Whore?

JC's Oct Rezday/Bday party

Da shmexie cowboy JC hosted his monthly Rezday/Birthday party at Tigers Isle. I know Franzi wuz positively quivering with excitement as this event approached. Also a little kissing contest on da side too, with JC as da judge...lucky him, and congrats to Franzi (I wuz jumping up n down with excitement as the winner wuz announced) who initially didn't want to enter but won it anyways. Runners up are uncle Rickie, Spanki (well done brother!), Kane Maruti and da mista fuckable2008 Vanyel Dreamscape.
DJ Matieu Karlsbar provided da hawt tunes for us to dance to....mmmmm, such a smexy voice. I'm purring at the thought of hearing it again...*purrrrsssszzz*
Jojo managed to get back inworld after having some trouble with hiz computer...haven't seen him in ages! Probably didn't know that i'm hiz brother too now. *Justyn makes a mental note to greet his brother properly next time they meet, and by properly he means to rub up against Jojo and give him a good licking all over*
The three brothers: kitteh, tiger, panther. Hmmm, we could form a performing troupe and tour the sims with our act =^.^=

And as night fell so did most of the clothes it seems. Mebbe it's to keep us warm by rubbing our naked flesh against each other? Ooooh yea, that'll save heaps on da electricity bill..hehee. 

A few disconnected thoughts...

I've been tryin to get into da halloween thing by gettin some orange glowy whiskers, ears n tail (can't help shopping =^.^=) since it's not big at all in Australia.

Torn between heading to the sexy nerd party at Tiger's Isle and DJ Wessey's gig at the Pavilion on Tues...whats a kitteh to do? I goes to both of course. First at the Pavilion then off to dance with mah brothers at Tiger's Isle. Gives a whole new meaning to brotherly luv when i danced nakie with Nevie with mah hard dripping shaft sliding between his legsfeeling his hot skin on mine, rubbing up on his hard lean body, mmmm...Rawr! Ooooh, Franzi got a group hug ring thingy too. Totally hawt to get into a group hug with a whole bunch of nakie guys. Kinda like one of mah fantasies cummin true where I'm in da middle licking all da hot cocks around me, cum shootin on...oops, gettin carried away here, heheeeh.

Always good chattin with mah m8 Rhodes over at Boots Beach, I'm alwayz at ease around him and he knows how to make a kitteh feel appreciated, purrrrz. 

I'm really lookin forward to JC's monthly rez day party now, can't wait!

Thus spake Justyn

My poor feet is tired now after several hours of dancing but i still can't get enough. First up I was at the Pavilion. I haven't been to DJ Wesley's sets for a while and so it's nice to be noticed when i stepped into the place. The sweety even welcomed me on voice announcement. Purrrrzzz. Azeri iz still as nutty as usual and iz definately the hostess with the mostest. My cheeky bro Darwin wuz dressed in the theme of brokeback mountain and Robbie wuz in a zebra loincloth for sum reason and the answer iz "Why not?" when i asked why. Why not indeed, well makes for easy access i guess *grinz*  

In da kitteh corner (Darwin, me, DJ Wesley, Taylor)

Next event wuz da legendary Neko Nite with DJ Kaj on Tiger's Isle. We had a bit of a dance off again this week. Battle of the chims: Kaj vs Franzi. Did i mention i luv dis event? If not, I LOVE IT! Kinda the highlite of my week. I'm sure Franzi would cover this event in more detail on his blog and i'm really knackered now so i'll keep it brief. Kyne haz a new supa sleek panther skin. Can that kitteh get any kuter? and Rickie came as a tiny lion, sooooo cuddly, I just wanna hug him to bitz. Neville was there for a short time, didn't stay for long. He wuz a bit down. I wuz hoping he would stay for longer and danced his worries away...well dat usually works for me. I'm gonna have to give him a hug n cuddle when I see him next. It bothers me when one of my brothers iz unhappy. I just want you guys to know I'm here for you! Peace =^.^=

Uncle Rickie as a tiny kute kuddly lion

Settling down n into the family

Spanki, Franzi, Me, Spike

What a fun couple of days. 

Yesterday, managed to catch up with Dadaist, the cutie-horny-pink-skunk-with-such-beautiful-eyes-makes-me-wanna-cuddle-him and Rhodes, my mate from W.A. on Boot's Beach n chatted about everything and nothing. Luv ya both to bitz.

Today, went to Premier for a bit of tail shakin. Franzi introduced me to our other brother. Finally got to meet that spankalicious Spanki. Since about half the guys there were already nakie i thoughts "what the heck!" and tossed my clothes to the side too. We even managed to get referred to as the couple of naked nekos over by the corner :P, well i didn't take that too seriously as something or rather someone smexy caught mah wondering eye: Spike. And so i made another neko buddy...Yays! Gotta get him to our neko nites. We continues dancing until the party wuz way over. Talk, talk, talk...Dance, dance, dance. Jeremie came n joined in for a bit too. Sooo glad to have these guys as mah brothers though Spanki really needs to grow a tail =^.^=

Oh! this kitteh iz not homeless anymore...Yays! Franzi iz building a neko haven in hiz parcel and says i cans stay there. Hugggies n licks brother!

Inside

Just wanted to share with you a beautiful poem by my brother Neville. I'm glad that we're family now. He's so sweet, so cute, so smexy, makes me want to do unmentionable things to him...oki, before i gets carried away here it is:

An original poem by Neville Braveheart

For my best friends, brothers, sisters and soul mates

INSIDE

I see you with my soul

When I close my eyes

When I see you hurting

Deep inside me cries

When you need me most

I won't be far away

Because I am a friend

Who is always there to stay

I'll hold you in my arms

when it's comfort that you need

I'll support you always

Knowing you'll succeed

I will give encouragement

So you know you're doing great

And when you are so happy

I'll help you celebrate

You are my best friend

You are in my soul

I can't live without you

Without you I'm not whole

When you look inside of you

I hope you see me there

And know I'm always with you

Because I really care

Being Neko

After discussing with Nev what being a neko iz all about the other night, i wanted to post my thoughts on it but mah brother Franzi haz beaten me to it. Nekos are indeed soo much more than just wearing a set of tail n ears. It's a state of being: cuteness =^.^= 

Anywayz he haz summed it up purrectly and puts it together much bettah than i ever could. Read it heres. 

We are Family

Blood iz thicker than water. I've gots one smexy brother: Darwin and gained 2 new neko brothers today: Franzi and Neville. We were chatting and dancin nekkid at the time but i've gone too far ahead...so let's rewind.

My day started out when i dropped in at Zippers where they're having a memorial for Matthew Shepard with uncle Rickie DJing. Many familiar faces there. Nev was there. There's something about him that draws me. We have barely met and yet i felt like i've known him for ages. I can't explain it. It's the same thing i felt with Franzi when i first met him. Kindred spirits.

The highlight of me week: Neko nite with DJ Kaj on Tiger's Isle, 7pm Sundays. Sowwy=^.^=but i can't help doing a plug for the event, absolutely luv it. To bad not many kittehs tonite but still hawt. Mal, Franzi, Ry, Kaj's double(can't remember hiz name, for a while i thought it wuz hiz twin), Dyson, Kyne, Eric, Everett were there gyrating, grinding and bopping to Kaj's awesum tunes. Nev turned up afta hiz shift at Zippers and so did Shadu near da end. Soon clothes we shed faster than a burmese sheds its fur. We alwayz seem to end up nekkid. *grinz* Words are not enuf to describe the tangle of limbs, tails, tongues, cocks that were Franzi, Nev, Ev and i. Hawtness! I gots so carried away i forgot to take piccies to put up here^^.

Ev invited me over to hiz place afta for a private session. And yez Franzi, i only tucked him in bed not f*ed him, well not yet. What cans i say, da lil tiger feels safe in my arms and i like caring for him and petting him. I'm not sure i'm ready for a relationship yet though.

Back at da Island only Franzi and Nev were left. We got onto some d&m while still dancin nekkid. So we're now at where this post started. Love, relationships and family...words, ideas and memories we exchanged. It really breaks my heart to see tiger hurting like this. Franzi still has feelings for Q and Q sitll loves Franzi but they can't be together *sighs*. Franzi, just wanted you to know i'll be here for you, a pair of perky ears to listen, a shoulder to cry on, a brother to dance with. I may be independent and a loner at times but i'm fiercely loyal to my clan and family.

I am a cat

You Are a Cat

You are very independent and reclusive. No one really understands you, and you like it that way! You are quite clever and ingenious. You can get yourself out of any sticky situation. You are confident and cool tempered. You know you have many advantages and resources to draw from. No matter what life throws at you, things always seem to work out your way.

What Animal Are You?

Just Dance!

The Awesum Kaj!

L to R: Franzi, Nev, Jeremie, Justyn

By Lady Gaga...lovin her songs right now. I just need to be distracted more than usual these days. And what better way than to spend it dancin the day/night away at Tiger's Isle with the smexies there. On Thursday (it wuz Thursday me thinks) I dropped in for a bit of tail shakin. Leather night, mmm luv the smell of leather, especially if it comes with a hunky guy wearing it...namely in the form of my co-dancer Nev. Man i can't keep my eyes, and hands, and tongue off him. There's something that just attracts me to him, animalistic lust....i think i'm on heat! 

Memories

Memory

All alone in the moonlight

I can smile at the old days

I was beautiful then

I remember the time I knew what happiness was

Let the memory live again

Afta all the sad unhappy times I like to think back to the happy times that I've had. It's funny how we edit our memories. We keep all the good ones and cut out the crappy, sad ones. Dunno about you but that's how my mind works anyway...I kinda suppress all the negative stuff.

Thinking about my smexy bro Darwin R. The time I convinced him to turn neko. The times we danced together at DJ Wesley's sets. The times we spent licking each other (and subsequently end up with more lickings than just good grooming ^_~). His fravourite tune, Pure Imagination...still reminds me of him whenever i hear it.

Thinking about Franzi, the oh so huggable tiger. The time when we met at DI with Darwin, dancing naked, which led to bodily fluids being exchanged *grinz*. The countless times we danced at Dominecks and then at Tiger's Isle. The lavish decorations that he conjured at the parties there. The times where our hawt swety bodies rub up and grind against each other on the dancefloor. 

Thinking about Everett. Cute lil tiger. The few chance meetings that we get and times spent together. The times dancing on the beach. The times I held you close. The times we stared into each other's eyes.

 Thinking about Aethan Hartshon. The time when we met at DI, my heart raced. The times we spent just lying around talking about sweet nothings, cuddling n stroking each other's hair.

So much more sweet memories. Justyn Maurer smiles and starts purring softly.

Curiouser and curiouser

I'm still thinking about the last party at Tiger's Isle where i won the big prize (see previous post). Just that something doesn't seem quite right and i'm still tossing it around in my head so i thought i'd write it down. 

When the voting started there was about 8-9 of us there, then some random ppl started popping in, only staying for a minute or two. I called out a greeting to them and no response. Then i noticed the board had recorded 14 votes. I wuz going to say something about this to Franzi but just then the winner wuz announced.

Hmmm, with all the issues of alts that came up in conversations and other blogs around at the moment made me think. How unfair is that, getting your alt in to vote for you in a contest. Or mebbe whoever it was, wuz just TPing in their friends for voting. Either way thanks to the laggy board i received 7 of those votes and the person (i can't remember who it was) whose name was on the same spot as mine but on the next page receiving 6 votes. 

So back to the thing about alts. I'm sure people have reasons for creating alts, some perfectly good reasons i suppose but I'm only recently becoming more aware of them. Even a little paranoid sometimes, thinking is this person an alt or really genuine. I used to take everyone i meet as they are. Guess that just reflects my RL character, I'm trusting and will take and accept you as you are. Now where wuz i going with this...? Lost my train of thought now, just rambling on a bit tonight i guess..hehe. Gawd i need sleep. 

*Justyn signs off, drags his body to his basket and curls up for a snoozzzze*

Show me the money!

Hope this is a sign that things are turning for the better. I still can't believe it...I won L$3000 at Tiger's Isle, won by 7 votes! Woo hoo! I feel so loved now, thanks guys. Even if i got there halfway through the party i still enjoyed every minute of it dancing there with my smexies. Daffy wuz DJing and the theme is sports but i don't even have any sporty stuff. I just went in my jockstrap, clean ones of course. I figured that since we're gonna get nekkid later anyway there's no point wearing too much gear. Seems like i'm getin into the habit of shedding off my clothes now. *grins*

Moving on

Can i let go of someone so easily? *sigh* This may take some time i guess. So i wuz doin a spot of shopping yesterday to distract myself and Ev pops me a line and asks if i wants to hang out for a bit. So i says oki and heads over to his place. Such a nice cute lil tiger. We danced for a bit, nuzzling our noses, stealing a kiss here and there, letting our hands wonder over each other's bodies. He told me that he's been wanting me for a while now. I'm touched but i don't think i can handle it, moving on so fast. This kitteh's heart may take some time to heal. 

Later on that day i began to wander the sims again. This time i revisited my old haunt at Tristar. I dunno what led me there. Just as Cat caught my eye (actually his boots caught my eye first^^) he IMs me. Smexiness! We got on a couch, cuddling and flirting. Suddenly i'm all timid again. I may not be ready for love but i need to release my pent up frustration. Just as we're about to go for it, i krashed :/ *sighs* Is SL trying to tell me something here? Or just bad timing. Hmmm....

Abandonment Issues

Lately I can't help but feel abandoned by my bf Agra. Ok so we haven't spoken for weeks, and when we did it was only briefly due to our different time zones and rl work times. Slowly we kinda drifted apart. 

First he tells me that his rl bf is back on SL and i have to lay low, so i thought oookayyy, I'm like the secret mistress in the relationship now but Agra has provided a huge home for us on his plot of land so I'm happy there building stuff, heading out to clubs and what not. I still get to see him once a while and he's still as passionate as ever. 

Over the next several weeks i noticed some furniture have gone missing, like half the kitchen. Then one day i got a notice from Linden labs that our group "Justyn M's BF" has only one member and would be disbanded. It was too late to save it so our group was gone. I thought wtf... the only way that could have happened is that he removed himself from the group.

Next thing i knew was when i logged in was that i was standing on an empty patch of land. I had been abandoned, left to wander the sims. 

I went to the Neko nite party on Tiger's Isle cause i was scheduled to dance but also to help me forget my troubles. It lifted my spirits until the event ended but all the thought of what Agra did to me came back to haunt me. I can't take it anymore, I have to move on. I've struck it out alone before and I can do so again.